I'll be disappointed with my results this mid years. Maybe I had too high expectations? But well it was supposed to be realistic. But still somehow the papers were harder than the past year papers. And therefore, before the results are even out, I feel like crying.
English: Target: A1 I think: A2?
I don't know everytime I write compos, I think I'll get 18/30. Paranoism. Then in the end, A1. But recently I suddenly got 20. So I was really disappointed, scared and sad and demoralised. So I don't really dare expect high marks this year. And I feel the same paranoism after this year's paper. So I'm playing safe. Compre should be able to do fine. Summary should be better than compre. Plan was to do well for paper 1 and summary, compre is always subjected to some sort of really strict marking so can afford to fail. Oh well.
Verdict: Cause for emo-ness
Combined Humanities : Target: A1 I Think: A2/B3?
This one was fine. Everyone died for history for some reason people from the B BAND didn't manage to complete both papers. A band too. But I managed too. So hopefully? I don't know why I say I can get A2 only. Paranoism?
Verdict: Normal?
Chinese : Target: B4/C5 I think: C6?
Oh my thinking is wishful thinking. Very very lucky if I can pass. The compre was very very difficult. Compo should pass.
Verdict: Hopeful.
Mathematics: Target: A1 I think: B3?
Paper 1 was easy. Paper 2 was a killer. Almost everyone died. Didn't complete some questions. I was very frustrated during the paper. Ahhhhh!!!!! And people stop blaming Lionel Syn.
Verdict: Cause for emo-ness Geography: Target: B3 I think: A2/B3?
I targeted B3. But before the exam I thought I might fail. Turns out it was quite simple and everything went smoothly. So this one is fine.
Chemistry: Target: A1 I think : A1/A2
I almost cried after the paper when I found out for a 6 part 6 mark question we were supposed to write the chemical FORMULA and not the chemical name. So like if I'm lucky and got enough "cushion" I will get A1. Or else A2. I did the mock paper and I got 2 A2s and the last one I did, I got A1. Well, I better just beat Yue Ming. It's basic common sense. He says he'll thrash me in chem because he got Alex Lee as his teacher. Teachers don't really make a difference unless it's kok yen lee. Then you might as well jump off the building. Maybe I cannot win him or win him by a great difference now. Thanks to the 6 mark question.
Verdict: Very very wasted and sad. High A1 possibility got wasted thanks to some stupid careless mistake. Much cause for emo-ness.
A math: Target: A1 I think: B3/B4?
The paper was relatively hard. But I could do most. This paper was much harder than last year's. Some of the questions I've never seen before. Compared to others I'm better off. But still.
Verdict: Cause for emo-ness
This was my most hopeful year yet even though I'm in a very brainless band. Thanks to the LACK OF COMPLACENCY and diligence. I could have finally got a chance to see a string of A1s. Why the hell must they set so many killer papers to jeopardise my hopes? Like if I did last year's exam I would have scored very high. This year the papers are so much harder. My favourite and best subject chemistry, why the hell did I make that bloody mistake oh shit. 6 marks over 70 is A LOT.
Physics : Target: B3 I think: Not done
Maybe I should set some low expectations and see if things improve. Physics is supposed to be damn easy but somehow LCK always comes up with very advanced thinking and tricky questions. He says so that O levels will be a breeze.