I really need a peaceful night's rest. This is race week, it's the time to focus. If the cost of the race is as such, then surely it is wise to channel the equivalent effort into it, and win it.
What's not within your control just isn't, nature will take its course and at the end of the day, decide what's best.
The curse set upon me 2 years and 8 months ago is now back, so yes divine or non-divine, retribution comes back and bites. Everything I ever did is back to attack me, little by little, one at a time. It's a punishment of epic proportions, but I do deserve it. It shows that it's impossible to get away with anything, what doesn't strike soon will eventually. The world is fair, and now it's my turn to pay the price.