Often, you get what you don't want, but don't get what you want. 

Or could it just be, you want what you can't get? Or you don't want what you can get?

Well, I felt like a cocaine addict finally getting his dose after being deprived of his drug for 2 weeks. 

I felt calm, at peace and at ease when the fingers interlocked. It gave me the feeling that everything was going to be alright. 

A stark contrast from the anxiety and troubled emotions I've been feeling for the past 2 weeks or so. 

And then, the fingers broke free, and once again, I'm thrown back into this feeling of anxiety.