Saturday, March 15, 2014
It just feels meant to be. Maybe everything that lead up to this was just to prepare me in advance. Everything that could've gone wrong didn't. Even my bike crash now just seems like a blessing in disguise. Crash into a taxi's side window while riding fast, but sustaining only minor scruffs all over my right side and a serious but superficial wound on my right forearm, nothing broken. Wow. And because of that, I don't have to go to work and I was free on Wednesday. I wonder how things would've been different if we met on Friday instead. Even before that, I was already extremely lucky to have gotten into Dublin. So easily even. It seemed so much like a fluke. But I would never have met her if not for getting into Dublin. Or going for last Sunday's breakfast. If even I can be convinced that there's something invisible but more powerful at work going on here, then I think it's meant to be.
Even though in the past year I've been through a lot and slowly built a wall up for myself, I think I'm ready to lower my defenses and allow this one through. I'll give my all into this one. I'm very much aware that I may get hurt from this, but I think she's worth it. I fully understand the risks and if I do end up getting hurt very badly, so be it.