From my secret book/punching book/inspirational book/article book/restricted access book/whatever book, written on sunday, july 15, 2am
It is 1.40am now and i am not asleep. I have just came back from my grandmother's house. My closest cousin Wayne and i had a good chat about some personal stuff. We always go to 7 eleven, buy some food and then go over to the park and chat. I don't seem to run out of things to talk to him about. It is always like we don't have enough time to finish what we want to say. Talking about cousins. I am faced with dilemmas daily. This one is not very difficult but is worth mentioning. My seven cousins are going to watch the movie Harry Potter next friday. I am invited, but am faced with this confusion of whether to go or not. In the first place Harry Potter isn't that nice to watch. I don't mind walking around window-shopping or just pure walking around and chatting. Plus i am not in the lavish and extravangant spending mood nowadays. Since June holidays i have been splurging on countless unnecessary things without putting much thought into my head before buying it. Therefore it is time to start watching my finances. I am quite tight on cash and am under the $100 mark, eating into my reserves. Then there is the third reason. I normally like to watch movies with the people i want to watch with. Unless its a particularly nice show. Even then i will still hesitate a little. So many reasons not to watch? Then don't force yourself! But there is just this half of me which thinks i should go. And this is just what you need to create a dilemma. It is a chance to go out after all. Not thay i am very prevented from going out. I went out almost everyday during the June holidays. It is just that i feel very relaxed when i am outside the four walls of my house. Then there is the big group effect. Big groups are fun and i love to go out with them. It would be good if we were given an option to invite our own friends along as well. Overall i feel like going. The only thing stopping me is to withstand that few hours of Harry Potter boredom and paying for something i don't enjoy. I feel like going mainly because of the bit of walking part and its a big group. I have not made the decision yet.
P.S. If they were to be watching a comedy, i'd gladly go. I don't see much fun in watching 2 boys and 1 girl solve some mystery and in the process swing their wand around casting spells and in the end getting killed ( which is highly possible). With the plot having most of the time relation to a traitor or something of that sort.